haiz ... jus feel so sad ... damn sad actually ... jus hate to write it here but i jus can't bear wif it anymore ... = '( jus hate to keep everything to myself ... i jus feel very tired ... heart soo pain ... i don need to u to be perfert ... i jus wan u to treat mi the way u want ppl to treat u ... tats all ... is it very diffcult ..? i noe ppl need time to change de ... everytime when u were wif mi , i thks god tat god keep u safe and away from danger ... everyday no matter wat am i do like cca training , lesson or having camps i was like wat r u doing now ..? how r u feel now ..? have u eaten ur breakfast/lunch/dinner ..? so much i wish u were beside mi ... i jus love ur company ... everytime when we quarrel i'll make it a point to talk to u bout it ... so tat i or we can improve on our relationship ... seriously i'm also very sick at the void deck talking to u regarding this ... wat hurts mi most is when i ask u wat r u thinking now and u gave mi the answer "my mind is in a blank" ... tat seriously hurts mi ... i jus hate to quarrel wif u ... and i reali do ... this year u r having ur 0 levels ... i do not want tat because of our relationship which will affect ur studies ... but if i hav to ... ='( choose between u and ur studies ... = '( haiz ... i don feel tat our relationship is a burden to mi ... i'm all along very happy in our relationship til .... haiz ... when we go out together , go to town ,watch movies , i jus simply enjoy being wif u ... a relationship is for us to love 1 another and not to keep quarreling ... wats the use of having a relationship if we keep quarreling ...? haiz .. i jus can't bear to let u go ... jus feel very sad ... hoping very thing will be fine ... = '(
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